this is what i wore yesterday as no post today as i will be in my "flattering" work uniform!!

the skirt is new and only £7 from topshop ^_^ and a size 8, i am never a size 8 i am a 12 in bottoms and 10/12 in tops so it was a real confidence boost when i found this out :)

i also found out yesterday that updating your passport is a rip off!! it costs £5 to get photographs and they only use 2 of them, then £78 for the renewal of the passport, then £5.50 to send it off to them!! again rip off.

being a saturday hopefully me and Ben will be having another date night ^_^ dont know what though, i decided last weeks and yet he still wants me to decide, the cheek but who knows.

Hell Bunny

this is my outfit post for today, i got these shoes with my birthday money, knee high converse with buckles :) i have been wanting these shoes for over a year but were over £100 from america :( but they eventually came into a shoe shop in the UK i was so so excited, my boyfriend just couldnt understand and from the uk they were a fraction of the price ^_^

the skirt im wearing is a Hell Bunny skirt brand new for £12 :) i love it to pieces, im slightly obsessed with this design of skirt atm but they are hard to find in the shops :(.

im gonna try and be more on top of posts this year ^_^

New Hat

my new hat that my amazing boyfriend brought for me ^_^ he has a matching male one hehe, we are gonna look so cool in winter

Bouncy castle fun

yesterday it was my birthday, and i had such an amazing day being spoilt by my lovely boyfriend, i also had so many beautiful gifts, including the dress and petticoat which i am wearing to my birthday party :)
i am having guests arrive from now, till we meet some in town at 3pm im so excited, pier, arcades, beach and to top it off having a bouncy castle for the night  ^_^ just what is called for when not being an official teen anymore.

oh and wait till you see my birthday cake :)

giraffe dress

i didnt think i would be fond of a maxi dress, but i dont know why, because i am 6ft and am a little bit proud of my shape. but i saw this yesterday and tried it on, on a whim and fell in love with it straight away but i did not fall in love with the price :( i wish i had it!! plus it also made me feel a bit like a giraffe ^_^

work experience

i am studying a media practice course at uni and i've been finding it really hard figuring out what i want to do in the future and how stable it might be.

but this amazing company are going to be in a place called Disability Somerset telling people what they do and asking people how they feel in the Somerset area.

The boss of Compass Disability has given me the opportunity to not only encourage people to write there opinions but i may get to do interviews with the boss, and possibly many other opportunities in the future.

its given me a sense of relief for the future :)

New game

i brought this for myself yesterday without much knowledge of it. 

what i found odd was that the collectors edition is full of these extra items was the exact same price as the normal one, and and and it was half price anyway so it pushed me towards buying it ^_^

what i found out later on by quizzing one of the workers in the shop is that it is a whole game in itself and not an expansion pack, so you have quests and adventures ^_^ 

im looking forward to playing it but i have promised myself that i will not play it untill uni is out of the way on the 23rd of this month, plus i need to finish Portal 2 before i give it back to blockbusters :)

new dress

my Beautiful friend Harriet showed me an amazing website full of amazing dresses, with one of my favourite makes of Hell Bunny, today the dress i ordered has arrived and here it is ^_^ i love it :) i love the detail on it :)

My nails

 

today i went into town with my best friend Harriet or as your know her Rai.
she persuaded me to buy this amazing nail varnish - BarryM instant nail effects, underneath is No7 Vivid Violet.
I love the effect it has created and each nail is a little different.

I have missed harriet a lot, she is one of the very few rocks in my life and today has really perked me up ^_^

hmmm

with my first university project, i had created a blog for my character, on this amazing blogging site :)

now to make the character seem realistic i had to update her often and use pictures.. everything a blog should have and involve.

But me in real life, i seem to forget, and don’t ever know what to put. 

i would really love to blog everyday and something good and happy but truthfully its hard to put that through into what i do, as i find it hard to be dishonest, even to people i don’t fully know :(

but i don’t feel i have anything interesting to put.

i see all my lovely beautiful followers and the people i am  following with amazing images on their posts , and clothes blog and with everything else, and i look at mine and think.. should i really bother?

i dunno…

Sigh

all i ever seem to blog about is how down i'm getting.
like today i had an okay time in work and it wasn't too bad until i get to the end of my shift as a headache occurs and and leg and back ache for being stood in one position for 4 hours.
and then i go and do a family shop after working and i don't mind helping my dad out as its just easier with a few of us.
so shopping was me my bf my dad and my brother.
towards the end of the shop he goes to my bf wow there isn' t much food in there just a lot of crap.
the thing is i mainly live on chips. i have been like it since i was two and am slowly eating more, unfortunately it is a phobia and hard to over come.
anyway he was on about my food.
so we get home and the food he is complaining about he cooks and feeds to his daughter!!!!!
now i really don't mind my niece eating it, i really don't as she is hungry and its her bedtime soon.
but when he has constantly been winging about how shit my food is and how he wouldn't touch any of the food and yet he feeds it to his daughter.
it just winds me up as he constantly goes on about how he is so much better than me in food and TV and games etc etc.
when all he is, is a hypocrite!!!!!
sorry i'm just very tired, and don't feel well. and yet whenever i get home i get greeted by this or bullying. the numerous times i've been twat called a is really getting to me.
it hurtful and he doesn't give a shit.
he's 28, has a 6 year old!! he needs to move out and be in control of his own house. as he isn't in control of this one no matter how much he thinks it.
he says i need to grow up but i disagree it needs to be the other way round!!!

one step forward, two steps back!

well as  officially today i am on top off all my uni work, and don't have any projects for awhile :) kudos to me.

only thing is it seems that every time i manage to bring myself into a happy state something just goes and knocks me straight to the floor. each and every time!

and every time it gets a little harder to get back up.

i just feel lethargic and tired, and weak and sad. 

i just don't know how to get out of this. 

i really really can't!!!

and on top of it all i'm not sleeping and i keep getting terrible headaches, i just don't know how to fix it.

Good Times :)

well last night i spent my evening with one of my best friends.
i think it was something we both really needed, as we both needed to get a lot off our chest, and just have some real girly chit chat time.
i have missed her to pieces as she went to Cardiff in september and this is the first time i have seen her, but i dont mind as i did get to see her and she loved her christmas present :) which is what matters :)
xx